Sometimes I feel like a nut…

So, I'm still trying to figure this out. I used to live here:

Now, I live here:

Do you think I could plead insanity?

It seems like such an easy decision to make. Marriage before money. Yet, when it comes down to it, I have found myself with an extereme lack of faith. Nellie is now eligible to move out to Texas with me, which is fantastic. What it means though is another move…one which, at the moment, I have no idea how we're going to afford. The Air Force pays for some things, alot of things, actually, but not everything. I've let this get into my brain, and now, I actually found myself pitting the options against each other. What's 5 more months, right? Wrong. Marriage certainly wasn't intended to be spent this way. I called Nellie yesterday and told her I didn't care about the finances…she was coming out ASAP. The dorms are driving me crazy. I told myself I was done with dorms when I left college and with roommates when I got married. Wrong on both accounts. So, if you think about us, throw up a prayer or two as we try to acclimate ourselves to what could become a lifestyle for the next, oh, 19 1/2 years or so.
By the way, Bob, if you read this. I had a dream last night and you were in it. You were an action hero. It was quite comical. Someday I will invent the device that allows people to record their dreams like TiVO. I wanna see how many people straight up lie about their dreams. Probably alot of them. But I'm serious about Bob. No kidding. Action hero. Cheesy lines and everything.

History has proven it. I've seen it personally. And yet, I just don't seem to get it. Beer and kareoke just don't mix. The end.

I just discovered that one of my roommates has webbed feet. That is utterly fantastic.

I’m starting to reconnect with people. I kinda dropped off the scene there for awhile. One by one I’m finding people. I’m calling, writing, finding people online…it’s nice to begin to feel like a normal person that has friends again. I was really cut off from everyone when I was in Basic, and now that I have a bit more freedom to talk to my friends, I feel like everybody has changed. Actually, it is probably me that has changed. Everyone else is probably (for the most part) the same. I look at things differently now. Civilians are so odd. They process things with whole different mindset. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not judging them in a bad way, it just seems like this experience is helping to expose me to a bigger picture. Believe me, I’m not “buying in” to everything by any means. I don’t have to like the people in charge to be able to do my job well. I don’t even have to necessarily like what it is that I’m doing. (Luckily, for the Air Force and me, I do so far) I believe that I can be excellent regardless of leadership or peer failure.
In other news, school is already grueling, as is my new schedule, which I’ll be on for the next 6 months. Monday through Friday I go to class from 1430 (that’s 2:30PM for all you yahoos) till about 2330 or midnight. Monday, Wednesday and Friday I have physical fitness from 0930 till 1130. About the only free time we have is the weekends, but luckily for us, they are totally free. This coming weekend will be the first I’m able to get off base on civilian clothes, so I’m looking forward to that. Nellie should be moving out here with me in the next few weeks…that will be a huge plus. I’m sick of this dorm life stuff. I thought I was done with it when I left college and got married. I’m pretty sure this isn’t the way that marriage was intended to be spent…apart. She’s doing alright, just spending time with her family, but I think they’re all driving each other slowly insane. I would hate to think what would happen if you took me away from my wife and threw me back in my parents house along with my older sister, who’s also been on her own for about 10 years (Nellie’s got an older brother that’s also living with them at the moment) and tried to make us a “family” again. Not that we’re not still family, but we interact differently now. I’ts intended to be that way. Anyway, off to iron my uniform and get ready for class…2 mini tests today, one tomorrow and then a big one on Wednesday…time to study.